Everybody has expectations or at least someone has expectations from you. Be it high or low, big or small it should always be of the right amount- not too high and not too low.
I'm starting to think whether me going up to Express and taking the subjects I choose was actually a good choice, or not and I'm starting to doubt. People's expectations of me seemed to get bigger and bigger especially those around me, somehow I feel burdened. Thoughts like "how will I ever get through Amath when seniors around me are already complaining about how tough it is?" "Will my parents be disappointed if I suddenly dropped Amath if I can't cope and manage it well?" "How will I ever cope well in the express stream?" and "will I ever live up to their expectations?".
I also feel suffocated- with new restrictions after I head up to express. Sometimes I wish I could just go somewhere far away and not come back, sometimes I do.
With new expectations and restrictions- Will I ever?