Thursday, December 31, 2015

December outfits

I've spent most of my December working and these were the few days which I had off and had spent it with a few of my closest friends! :-) 

Staycation at RWS- Hotel Michael 
December 14-16 

First day- December 14
Top: Bangkok • shorts: Factorie
Day 2- December 15: USS day!

What to do you when you wake up in the morning and still have spare time? You take some Instagram worthy shots! 😉

with Mei and Mel!! ❤️🤗

Spotted my primary school Friend when I was there! Thank you for saying hi to me first!!! 🤗🤗❤️ 
Hahaha I didn't notice her at first but she was like " ALANIS ALANIS!!" HEHEHE 💕

Dress- Online • shoes- online •

19 December- flea!

20 December- flea day 2!

Shoutout to my primary school Friend in the middle who spent $50 on pizza just to fill our tummies! So thankful to have your support!! ❤️❤️ hang out soon 🤗🤗

Aww my Friend came down to support and even bought stuff from me!! 

two of my closest friends 💕🤗 
Giraffe on my left and wild monkey pretending to be reindeer on my right 

26 December- day out with the boy! ❤️

Thank you for being such an amazing photographer 💕 

Top: factorie • skirt: factorie • bag- river island 

Closing off 2015 without you.

It feels so different tonight- actually coming home to nothing. Nobody was at home when I went home, there was no excitement no anticipation towards the new year. It felt lonely and cold without your presence. I would have been fine with you nagging and asking why I have yet to eat and then you saying how time has passed so quickly. At least you were home last year to start the new year with me. But as they always said home is where the heart is and I know you'll always be there for me like a shelter, like a protective shield somewhere out there, I've learnt to let go. Once again not fully not thoroughly but slowly. 
I have no idea how many thousand times I've said this in my head but I miss you. I miss you for as long as I can say I miss you. 

Happy New year Grandmother, 💕

Tuesday, December 22, 2015


Everything reminded me of you, again. Like how I saw a little boy with his grandmother boarding the bus this morning and carrying his school bag for him. I was reminded of you again and I couldn't help but tear up a little, this is how badly I've missed you. Another day; another day of finding fond memories. 

I hope you're still well, and I hope you know that I'm truly missing you.

Monday, December 21, 2015

I'm missing you again

It will never be the same without you, my head hurts and heart aches everytime I think of you and I'll start crying again. every year- this month our family will be eating glutinous rice balls (tangyuan) as a tradition cooked by you but it'll never be the same again from this year onwards, I miss you and I miss how you're not here with us anymore. I want us to eat the tangyuan soup cooked by you together. I want you to be the one scooping the soup for me this year again. I want you to be there with us again another year, but you're gone.

And I still miss you. #2

Friday, November 20, 2015

and I'll still miss you

it has already been more than a month, I hope you're doing fine. Without your presence there's still loneliness and emptiness at home which will never ever be filled. I miss everything about you, I miss your cooking, I miss your constant naggings and I miss your presence. How I wished I had given you more hugs and many more kisses. I still miss you and I would never fail to get all emotional every time I look back at the photos I took during the difficult period at the hospital. I could have showered you with more love and more concern, and I could have given you more attention. But I didn't and I wished I had. I miss you, and I miss the times you would always buy me LlaoLlao for lunch and we would always share red bean with porridge at Kopitiam even though I was already so full. You never failed to ensure that I have taken my fill and taken all my three meals because you know I'll always skip 1 or 2 meals on certain days especially during my mugging period. I wished I never made you worried about my meals then and I should have let you have a peace of mind instead. 
I miss the times we had together, the times we spent together. I missed the times we I was younger and you would always push me in a stroller with a clear transparent plastic covering over the stroller when it was raining; making sure I do not get drenched and instead it was you who came back from the market wet and drenched. Having to hold an umbrella, carry numerous bags of groceries and having to push the stroller. I was safe and sound under the covers.
I missed the times when I was in primary school and you would never fail to bring me to school everyday. Walking me to school and helping to carry my heavy bagpack full of books. All I had to do was walk and you were the one carrying the bag full of books for me. You were there for me ensuring I get to school safely.
 The school shifted to an inconvenient location and taking a school bus was necessary, and on certain days when I don't make it on time for the bus; I start getting worried and panicky. And you were there; you assured me that I'll get to school in time you brought me there yourself taking the bus all the way to Jurong east area which at that time seemed foreign as if it was a whole new world. I got there safely and you had to take the bus back home, alone.
I miss even the littlest things you've done for me; I miss you peeling fish, I miss you peeling the skin of grapes and letting me eat the flesh while you eat the skin of the grapes, I miss you helping me to take out the skin of my favourite red bean pau as you know I dislike the hard skin.
I became more independent as the years gone by, I needed less of you and I relied on myself more. I didn't need you to help me peel the fish off fish bones for you were afraid I would choke for I've became more careful; you didn't had to help me take off the skin of the grapes like you used to for I've became less fussy. 
 But you were always there for me, you were always there for the family. Always ensuring that we would always get sufficient food and we would always have something to eat when we come back home. It was never easy to cook, but you cooked everyday without fail. 
I've nurtured so much and grew so much under your pampering and care; 
you will always be irreplaceable  
And I will still miss you for everything you've done.  I still miss you for you

I still feel emotional about the places we've been to together and there will always be something gloomy about the hospital we frequented together.

& When will I ever get over the fact that I've already lost someone important and that you're no longer here with me? 

Thursday, November 19, 2015


November went by like a breeze, there were so many events yet so little time for everything, but theres one thing out of the so many unpleasant things that im happy about- OLEVLES; i'm finally done with my olevels. I'm definitely so glad and relieved that its all over. November has definitely been a rough and tough  month for me and my family, but i'm glad that we've managed to tide it through together. As someone close to me always said "Tough times don't last but tough men definitely do" , I'm so glad that I've came out of it as a much stronger individual. (so, thank you for the strong words of encouragements :) I'm so glad to have you by my side.)
Now that secondary school life is officially over for me, I finally have more time to do whatever I want to do and I'll finally have more time for my loved ones and the people close to me.

And yup, straight away after the last paper my sis immediately helped me to dye my whole head red.
I can officially announce that i'm now a red head, and after wards I went to chop of my mane which has grew over the mugging period.

here's my November outfits being collated into one blogpost! Enjoy the visuals! :)

12 NOVEMBER 2015
outfit: top- JCUBE / skirt- Forever 21 / shoes- TOPSHOP

13 NOVEMBER 2015; Here's what i wore for my school homecoming/prom night!

Velvet x mesh dress- Cotton On / Outerwear- MANGO / Shoes- Charles&Keith / Bag- Charles&Keith / Necklace- TOPSHOP

16 NOVEMBER: Dress- The Editors Market / Outerwear- Pull&Bear / Shoes- Charles&Keith / Necklace- H&M

[SNAPCHAT: alanis-tan]

caught up with my bestfriend over some tea and cakes at Lady M! Loved the green tea mille crepe alot and we literally sat there for an hour talking about everything and anything under the sun.

16 NOVEMBER:  Dress- The Editors Market / Bag- rRiver Island

19 NOVEMBER: Dress- The Editor's Market / Jacket- MANGO / Shoes- Charles&Keith / Bag- River Island

heres a really candid shot taken by my bestfriend! :>

snapchat: alanis-tan

shoutout to my homie over here for always helping me to take my outfit photos! Always so patient with me and each photoshoot session is always jam-packed with lots of fun and laughter with ya around! xoxo

His instagram here // my instagram here