I miss the times we had together, the times we spent together. I missed the times we I was younger and you would always push me in a stroller with a clear transparent plastic covering over the stroller when it was raining; making sure I do not get drenched and instead it was you who came back from the market wet and drenched. Having to hold an umbrella, carry numerous bags of groceries and having to push the stroller. I was safe and sound under the covers.
I missed the times when I was in primary school and you would never fail to bring me to school everyday. Walking me to school and helping to carry my heavy bagpack full of books. All I had to do was walk and you were the one carrying the bag full of books for me. You were there for me ensuring I get to school safely.
The school shifted to an inconvenient location and taking a school bus was necessary, and on certain days when I don't make it on time for the bus; I start getting worried and panicky. And you were there; you assured me that I'll get to school in time you brought me there yourself taking the bus all the way to Jurong east area which at that time seemed foreign as if it was a whole new world. I got there safely and you had to take the bus back home, alone.
I miss even the littlest things you've done for me; I miss you peeling fish, I miss you peeling the skin of grapes and letting me eat the flesh while you eat the skin of the grapes, I miss you helping me to take out the skin of my favourite red bean pau as you know I dislike the hard skin.
I became more independent as the years gone by, I needed less of you and I relied on myself more. I didn't need you to help me peel the fish off fish bones for you were afraid I would choke for I've became more careful; you didn't had to help me take off the skin of the grapes like you used to for I've became less fussy.
But you were always there for me, you were always there for the family. Always ensuring that we would always get sufficient food and we would always have something to eat when we come back home. It was never easy to cook, but you cooked everyday without fail.
I've nurtured so much and grew so much under your pampering and care;
you will always be irreplaceable
And I will still miss you for everything you've done. I still miss you for you.
I still feel emotional about the places we've been to together and there will always be something gloomy about the hospital we frequented together.
& When will I ever get over the fact that I've already lost someone important and that you're no longer here with me?